This tickled my funny bone because all I could think of then was hordes of women pacing a labour ward, clutching their hands to their cheeks like Edvard Munch’s “Scream” painting, which someone with too much money recently bought for $120 million.
Putting on a birth face is a bit like putting on a game face, in my view. You are facing a truly Herculean task, a painful, body-morphing Odyssey which may or may not involve you shitting yourself, tearing your netheregions asunder or having the scare of your life should that precious heartbeat drop. The payoff, of course, is the best I can imagine – something that has driven me through the past two years of tests, treatments and heartbreak.
So I am doing my best to put my birth/game face on. The meeting today with Dr E helped a LOT. Last week he’d given me the impression we might induce this week (week 39), and this scared the crap out of me. It just felt like it was too soon.
Today Dr E felt the top of her head and established she is still floating about, rather than “engaged”. He said we’ll see what she does this week, and if she hasn’t come of her own volition next Tuesday, Week 40+2 days, we’ll induce. This feels right to me.
For those interested in the details, inducing would involve an early morning visit for one hormone to soften the cervix, and then a return and check-in in the early afternoon for the contraction part… they would have to monitor me but I could still walk about, apparently. Inducing brings a heightened risk of c-section, but with this method Dr E says 70%-80% of cases end in vaginal delivery.
Now let’s see what the babe has in mind for the week ahead 🙂